EXCHANGING EGO FOR ONE’S TRUE SELF

Some say the most profound scientific discipline is theoretical physics which vastly expanded our understanding of the structure of the physical universe, using the language of mathematics, but I think, now, this needs to be transcended by an even more fundamental spiritual/theological discipline which furthers a deeper understanding of God and human beings through the expansion of consciousness of love, truth, justice, and beauty as expressed through arts and literature. Materialistic evolution, i.e., science and technology, has taken us about as far as humanity’s ever going to get, spiritually, but the prospects for our species will turn out to be pretty grim if that’s the full extent of what we, as humans, are ever going to achieve.

Isn’t it time for humans to make a conscious, species-wide, choice about which of these evolutionary paths we should take: materialistic evolution (including artificial intelligence) or the next step in our human spiritual evolution.

Greater spirituality, however, won’t necessarily increase our intelligence or ability to manipulate the material world, but might, eventually, evolve us into an entirely different type of humanity –  the kind earlier pointed us towards by Jesus, Buddha, Mohammed, and Laozi.

            When a person enters the world, as a baby, they’re totally open to God – arriving as pure energy in human form. Because babies come straight from God, they’re completely natural upon arrival. After that surprise landing in the world, however, they need to figure out how to survive in a particular time and place. Eventually they do, but the cost can be high. They’re faced with the necessity of becoming the kind of person other people readily recognize and like, as well as this child’s surrounding culture use. Since, usually, they’re raised by their parents – people who’ve already made the requisite compromises and adjustments – this baby, ultimately, learns how to “fit in.”

The baby, though, who started life as a tiny energy “sun,” eventually begins to “dim” because so much of their original natural energy can be perceived as “alien” by her family’s world. Eventually, however, the baby matures and becomes a “person” by developing its ego –ultimately joining society. One day, however, this very baby – after attaining adulthood – might begin wondering where all her previous God-like energy has gone – and whether it can ever be regained.

In traditional societies, a person’s roles remain largely the same throughout their life and also determines how their own children turn out.

In more modern societies, however, by early adulthood, a person usually can gain various abilities and opportunities that allow them to change “who” they are – through their “individual” choices – which can lead them away from their predestined family roles and enable them to become, partly, a family-destined person and partly a self-determined one – as a “composite” role. Nevertheless, whatever this mixed role ends up turning out to be, it’s still, ultimately, a role.

All roles, whether traditional, composite, or fully modern, are included in one’s “life story.” As Shakespeare wrote in As You Like It: “All the world’s a stage, and all the men and women merely players.” So, the problem with developing an “ego,” along with an  accompanying “life story,” is the temptation to “make up” the story as one goes along – like living inside a self-made dramatic film – even though this is usually carried out, mainly, unconsciously.

Another problem with “roles” is their need for consistency and continuity, so the self, seemingly, remains the “same.”

This is why much “higher” values are necessary to effect real change in these quotidian roles and ongoing stories. Traditionally, humanity’s highest values are attributable to a “Holy Spirit” (usually identified as “God”) – as well as to other divine attributes such as love, truth, justice, and beauty.

Roles and their accompanying stories compel us to live as unfree. Since we believe these roles and stories (reinforced by the surrounding society) constitute our “identity,” we sometimes believe we need to “die” as the price for achieving real freedom. Frequently, if a person is threatened with losing their identity, they think they might as well be dead. That’s how important roles and personal stories are for normal human beings. In fact, there’s a general consensus in the humanities, as well as in psychotherapy, that the ego, as a person’s chief fictional character, is one’s essential self.

So, how do we free ourselves from such embedded roles and stories making up our “ego,” which obstructs our “natural” human self-understanding and also closes down our spontaneous thoughts and gain the freedom necessary to become our “true selves”?

The answer is we have to be “born again” – at any age! That is, we need to reverse direction, spiritually, and become a “child” all over again in order to become as free as God.

Jesus himself said this, did this, and then voluntarily diedto show us how.

To be “born again” is scary – and very few of us are able to do it all at once. Most people need time to shed their artificial roles to become free enough to make a long and daring leap to their “true selves.” Starting at an older age, however, it’s actually easier to move towards a higher spirituality by breaking up and discarding pieces of one’s earlier “false selves,” gaining the greater naturalness and openness that’s spiritually necessary to achieve one’s “true self” –  even though, at the same time, by necessity, we’re also inevitably becoming physically frailer and weaker.

HOW TO ACHIEVE “A SECOND LIFE”

As I get older, I feel myself physically fading
But, at the same time, I also have an increasing desire
To spiritually become closer to God.

All life in our expanding universe is flickering on and off –
But God pays no attention,
That is, until God chooses a “light” originally powered by God
And starts paying attention to that.

God’s able to retrieve every single thought we ever thought
Every movement, every breath –
It all still exists – stored away in God’s own Time –
But why would God spend energy
Bringing back someone’s “non-God” activity to life again?

God just wouldn’t do that.

God’s eternally constructing God out of nothing
And so would give “second life” only to human beings
Who’ve been able to participate along with God in this world.

God gave Jesus eternal life
Because Jesus, while still in this world, was able to live as a human being married to God
So everyone could see what that was like.

At his death, as this kind of a human being, Jesus was able to “merge” with God.

Yes, anyone can become a part of God if they really want it
But it takes a lot of intentionality, courage, and intelligence
To achieve.

You don’t gain a second life just by “believing” in Jesus, no matter what Paul said –
You only get this by actually “living like” Jesus,
That is, completely in love with God.

FREEING ONE’S “TRUE SELF”

There’s no consciousness without the material world
And there’s no part of that material world without at least some consciousness.

Also

There’s no physical entity that doesn’t include the potential for “life”
As an intrinsic and necessary part of its structure.

Because

Life is inherent in unlife –
And consciousness is innate in life –
So objective spiritual truth must be a fundamental element of the cosmos.

Eventually, over time,

God was born as a human being, bearing the name of Jesus,
And Jesus, in turn, matured into God while remaining wholly human.

In sum,

God created the universe by opening up an infinitesimally small gap into and through nothing –
Starting out with dust –
And is now partway on the path to re-creating God
In another time and space
Who, spiritually, is the ultimate perfect balanced combination
Of Love, Truth, Justice, and Beauty.

It’s like opening up one’s hand –
Discovering a trapped bird –
And allowing the freedom of an unborn self
To fly straight to its very own “true self.”

SOUL ARTISTS

Why spend time with anyone else?

If you don’t know a soul artist
Then take the next best thing – and read them.

A true soul artist can reach you through their books
Extract your heart
And throw it up to the stars!

When your heart reaches those stars
You’ll gain the perspective you’ve needed back here on earth.

Spiritually, our world is dusty and confusing – filled with misdirection –
So why not look around
Search through all the people you’ve ever met –
And reminisce about each and every book you’ve read –
Is there a soul artist there?

It’ll be like meeting the love of your life –
But better –
Glorious, overflowing with joy –
Salvific.

A soul artist can paint a picture of you
Appearing like an angel of God.

Peer into that mirror –
To say: “Yes!”

WHAT A GIFT – JESUS’ REAL DEATH

Doesn’t the splendor and meaning of Jesus life
Derive entirely from his death –
The actual one – the one he accepted
At the hands of Roman soldiers and Temple officials?

So, how could his death become more meaningful
By refusing to acknowledge it –
Playing the Roman game of power trumping power?

The truth is that if Jesus ever decides to come again
It would have to be spiritually, not materially,
After all, even now, isn’t he “alive”
In the hearts of people grateful for his gift –
Not as the prime source of some Pauline super-cult
But only as a human subject
Since subjects are the only type of human beings
Free enough to make a decision to physically die
In order to spiritually live.

If Jesus knew he was going to be resurrected
Wouldn’t his “death” have been pointless –
Since such “risen life” would have undermined
The meaning of his actual death –
The gift he had decided upon.

Jesus “became” God upon achieving the freedom to die for God
As well as for the rest of us –
So his gift would become available for future generations
By his spirit becoming generally available –
And God’s Kingdom, by that reason, starting to achieve reality here on earth
Among all people.

What a gift – that real death!

GROWING YOUNGER WHILE GROWING OLDER

While still young, we become anxious to grow older
Modeling ourselves on nearby adults who seem successful –
Eventually, however, we become older ourselves – inside and out.

But this turns out to be not right!

Later on in our lives, some of us begin a struggle
To become free of our earlier-developed “mature” selves
While an even smaller number manage to actually accomplish it –
By becoming “children” again.

Growing older, at some point we find the need to start over – reversing direction –
Spiritually – getting younger year by year –
Until we achieve the stage Jesus might look over at us –
(Now, perhaps, grandfathers and grandmothers)
And say: “Let the little children come unto me.”

CLOUD IN FRONT OF THE SUN

Who is God, anyway?
Is God a spiritual entity encouraging us to be our best
Intellectually, morally, and spiritually?
Is God someone pointing us in the right direction?

My main problem with God involves the influence of certain people
Who also are pointing us in one direction or the other –
People from whom we think we need permission,
Or who provide us with identity,
Or even the permission to be?

When these people merge with God, we get “Religion” –
Like a cloud in front of the sun –
Especially when we’re not able to distinguish one from the other.

All human beings are born with the capacity to experience joy –
And so, from birth, potentially we can embody it –
But then, almost immediately, we find we aren’t seeing beyond our family
(Unless our family’s exceptionally transparent to God) –
So, when we perceive family instead of God –
That is, when we experience a world largely of related people instead of a world of God –
This becomes one of the main sources of our anxiety.

We know God is there – right behind them– just over their shoulders –
As spiritual “light” –
And when we fall in love with that light –
It frequently occurs to us to “hit the road.”
If we do that, we’ll have to leave family, society, and world –
And risk dying for God.

But, if we follow through on this, eventually we’ll get everything back –
God and the world –
Even family.

If we become a “God” person
We’ll be able to “see” God in others –
In all others.

Then, when we’re able to distinguish what’s not God from God –
That won’t upset us –
Because it’s reality
And God is reality.

When we start seeing reality through God’s eyes –
Feeling with God’s heart –
We’ll fall deeper and deeper in love with Love
So that everything turns out alright –

You might even say, we’ll have been “Saved!”

QUESTIONS

What gender is the “true self” –
Does this always match up with one’s physical self?

For example, could a man, say, Jesus, over time become more like a woman spiritually –
Raising the question whether there may be evolution in spiritual gender?

And, if so, what would a man who evolved spiritually in the direction of women “look like” –
Would there be physical evidence of such a change?

On the other hand, what does a spiritual woman look like –
And would that be any different from a spiritual man?

Do angels, spiritual or human, have sexual attributes –
And, if so, how is gender manifested at the angelic level?

Do enlightened human beings emanate sexual differences,
That is, spiritually, are they one sex, the other sex, or both at the same time –
Or do they simply “shimmer” in some metaphysical sense
So we become attracted to these “higher selves”
And desire to follow them throughout the rest of our lives?

DREAMING OF THE TRUE SELF

We don’t age in dreams – or internal consciousness either
But we do in mirrors and other peoples’ reactions to us –
Teaching us what our external appearance shows.

God sees the same person at birth, childhood, young adulthood, maturity, and old age
Because, spiritually, we’re always the same age –
Which is why, sometimes, we believe we might survive
Even after our last breath’s been taken away.

If we could only remember that our “true self” doesn’t track physical age –
Whether young or old –
And also remember what our existence feels like in dreams –
We would understand our “true self” lies beyond success or failure,
Age, sickness or health.

Of course, our true self does have the ability to learn –
Especially in one’s attitude to gifts of the spirit – like truth, love, beauty, or justice –
And we’re always free to ask God to accept us just as we are
So that, in turn, we’ll be able to accept ourselves (and others) in the same manner.

Remember, don’t judge yourself by externalities –
But only by the internal feelings and intuitions
Arising out of your individually unique experience.

 

NOTHING BUT GOD

“The fireflies, twinkling among the leaves,
make the stars wonder.” Tagore (“Fireflies”)

 

In the past, they called this “magic”
Now, we call it “wonder” –
Actually, it’s just the border of God’s robes
Brushing like wind through treetops
Sparkling with thousands of tiny intermittently-flickering living lights.

We would recognize this if ever we decided to look up
But we don’t –
Because we no longer have interest in spiritual evidences of God.

And, yet, there still remains a repeated murmur
Way back in the depths of our hearts –
A whisper about the promise of what’s coming.

In truth, underneath all our disbelief, we still believe in God –
We know it’s God who’s been knocking at our door –
Even though we’ve completely forgotten God’s name.

Beyond all the tall church steeples
And even before human hypocrisy has completely died down –
If we just permit ourselves to start seeing spiritually
Everything our eyes take in

Will be God – and nothing but God.