RECOGNIZING CRITICAL LIFE CHOICES

Some choices are as critical as one’s birth –
But you’ll have to “wake up” to recognize when such a choice
Has come knocking at your door.

Most of the time, however, people don’t choose –
Since the choice has already been made for them by parents,
Friends, teachers, or simply arise out of “what comes next.”

But if you do “wake up” and become faced with a true choice –
Whether being “born” – the first or any subsequent time –
Your take it – because God doesn’t hand out such choices
Freely
Even if the choice, when it appears, turns out to be completely free.

For some people, a choice arrives
When falling in love
Either with another person or by the surprising appearance of reality –
Since how else could you find yourself outside yourself –
That is, outside family, society – and all the dreams of your peculiar culture.

If it turns out, however, that you’ve been too lazy to look
Unfortunately, you won’t be able to discover any true choice –
Since when such a choice comes along, you won’t recognize it –
It’ll seem just like any other thing –
Quickly submerging
Beneath the waters of consciousness.

GOD’S ALIVE AND SO HAS THE ABILITY TO CHANGE

If God is sentient – being alive –
God can change.

Is changing now – just as you read this.

God is not an ancient immovable statue placed up on high
To be worshipped –
God continually changes right before our eyes.

Also, God is placeless and so is similar to Nature –
Alive at every level –
Even in our imagination.

God embodies a Spirit that breathes
Like the tides –
Like hummingbird hearts –
Or rain pelting down onto our faces.

God knows what we think
Before that thought ever surfaces into our consciousness.

God understands the beginning – as well as the end –
While cherishing middle lives.

For example, God immediately was aware of my grandchild, Jules –
Before I ever placed a foot on the second-floor staircase –
Before I turned on the whole-house fan –
Before I even asked my wife to be my wife – the first time.

Jules existed way back then –
Centered directly in God’s loving eyes.

THE INTERCONNECTIVITY BETWEEN SELF AND GOD

Artificial selves worship artificial gods
While the search for one’s “true self”
Has to end up discovering a true God.

Accepting one’s family imprint on one’s self –
Or society’s imprint –
Or even the imprint of a small circle of artist friends –
Invariably leads into a room captioned “religion”
With an exclusive set of beliefs.

God, however, is wild –
More so even than Nature itself –
At all levels – particles through galaxies.

God obviously cannot be held in hand like a medallion –
To be sworn upon –
And there’s no pictures either.

God is invisible – lives nowhere –
And always is a surprise to us –
Like the wind
Which arises so suddenly –
Carrying oceanic flavors.

God is Love –
Waiting as long as you need.

Yes, the ultimate truth about God
Is that God is willing to wait for us!

THE MISTAKE OF WANTING TO ASSERT CONTROL

Some people, especially men, want to assert control
By wielding, waving around, symbolic inflatable penises.

Most women, and even a few men, understand, on the other hand,
That letting go of one’s mental and physical tensile grip on life
Allows God to step in to do something unexpected,
Which, upon reflection, usually works out much better.

The truth is, God only acts when we allow space
For something “out of the blue” –
“Blue” being the color of pure spirit.

Sometimes, we see this through the eyes of a tiny insect
And, sometimes, like God, we see it through the eyes of the entire universe
Which is similar to observing God coming to earth –
What we pray for, but usually, don’t truly want.

God, please permit me to give up my desire for full control.

Let me give it up with a smile –
Like the memory of one time I wasn’t pressing so hard –
Waiting for God –
Hoping that my “false self”
Would finally give me permission to let go!

EVEN BABIES KNOW HOW TO DO THIS

What happens when one achieves “enlightenment”?

Does this suddenly enable us to “see reality”
Bypassing fantasies of power and success –
Beyond adolescent desires beckoning us ever upward.

Yes, it’s accepting that whatever’s there – is there.

Alternatively, it could be when “we” disappear
And become “nothing” –
Each instant appearing new
As we become birthed and rebirthed an infinite number of times –
Everything experienced “fresh” –
Always fresh.

Isn’t that what God is like – as experienced through a human body.

Most of the time, though, we’re simply regular selves –
That is until, suddenly, we remember we’re enlightened –
And flicker into “life” –
Opening up like a red flower blossoming in an orange sun.

This “self” is able to change as fast as new experiences pile in –

Actually, even babies know how to do this!

THE ONLY STEP THAT MATTERS

Studying is not the same as building a pyramid
It’s more like tasting –

Or like memory still warm from experience
Before it ages into hardness.     

Studying, as just stated, is not materialistic
It’s more like opening a window –
Forgetting you’re still inside.

What I do “know” is what I’ve never completely learned
And lost all hope of fully understanding.

Right now, a few years before death, I’m opening up to a great forgetting –
Losing substantial parts of my self –
Which, for some reason, doesn’t bother me.

So, I’m ready, now, for the final journey
When “I’ll” be completely gone –

I’m prepared to start – at this very moment –

Taking the first step
Based totally on faith.

I believe in God who I’ve never even partially understood –
Who’s colorful and poignant as the final surprise and gift –
Upon taking that first step –

The only one that matters.

FREEING ONE’S “TRUE SELF”

There’s no consciousness without the material world
And there’s no part of that material world without at least some consciousness.

Also

There’s no physical entity that doesn’t include the potential for “life”
As an intrinsic and necessary part of its structure.

Because

Life is inherent in unlife –
And consciousness is innate in life –
So objective spiritual truth must be a fundamental element of the cosmos.

Eventually, over time,

God was born as a human being, bearing the name of Jesus,
And Jesus, in turn, matured into God while remaining wholly human.

In sum,

God created the universe by opening up an infinitesimally small gap into and through nothing –
Starting out with dust –
And is now partway on the path to re-creating God
In another time and space
Who, spiritually, is the ultimate perfect balanced combination
Of Love, Truth, Justice, and Beauty.

It’s like opening up one’s hand –
Discovering a trapped bird –
And allowing the freedom of an unborn self
To fly straight to its very own “true self.”

STEPPING AND LEAPING

There are multiple steps required to reach God –
Too many, actually –
So why not take a single leap –
Exclaim “God!” and, suddenly, be there.

God likes these kinds of surprises.

Of course, God counts all the steps you’ll actually need
In a single glance –
While you’re still reciting: “One Thousand Nineteen, One Thousand Twenty….”

Each step represents an increase in human consciousness –
That is, in the quality of soul, mind, and life experience –
And each takes a lot of work –
God appreciates that –
While whispering: “You know, there’s really a more direct way to achieve this.”

Counting may eventually get you there –
But leaping is daring and beautiful – reflecting the elegant thrill of dance.

God loves both daring and dance
Muttering: “Here, take my hand” –
“Watch this step” –
And sails through the overarching Universe –
Penetrating Time itself.

Suddenly, you’re there, that is, here!
Taking personal tea with God
In a long and intimate conversation
Between best of friends!

MY WIFE THE “TREE”

My wife (see photo above) believes she’s a “tree”
Even though she’s also a lifelong Christian.

Beyond Biblical “Heaven” –
Way beyond –
Beyond the human race and alternative universes populated with radiant angels
And various other large and small “gods”
There’s a land where she wants to become rooted
Along with other trees –
Forests full of them.

One day, deep in such a forest, after expiring as a human being,
She’ll turn herself into a tree –
Smiling –
Yes, trees can smile – just like she does!

Beyond human beings and their spectacular minds –
Beyond “God” and all the subsidiary “gods”
There’s a land towards which she‘s been traveling for some time
Where, physically and spiritually, she’ll take root.

My wife, the gentle, smiling,
“Tree.”

“GOOD” AND “GOD”

They’re the same – don’t you already know that?

Both demonstrate the moral excellence undergirding the universe
As an “ideal,” as the “perfect” –
In other words, as Jesus’ personal image of God.

It’s also what we want to discover for ourselves
And why we feel so ashamed or guilty
When we do begin thinking about it
Because we’ve neglected or generally refused to work very hard at this
Since moral excellence takes a lot of effort –
Especially since we have to get past all the pleasurable fantasies
That have been so comforting to us.

A direct experience of God is exhilarating –
While the same can also be said of the Good.

Actually, there isn’t any “Big Man in the Sky”
And it doesn’t have anything to do with “Power” –
In fact, it’s more like a “state of being”
That takes significant effort through extended conscious human thought.

In the West, Jewish prophets and rabbis put a lot of work into ethics and morality
And we’ve all been the beneficiaries of their efforts –
While in the East, for priests and gurus, the focus was primarily on Nature and Beauty
Which obviously are good – just not “perfect” –
Especially if it doesn’t result in any deep connection to ethics.

So, the ultimate of both God and the Good is Jesus’ view of “perfection,”
That is, universal moral excellence.

It’s what we “say” we want –
As if such “sounds” can actually issue forth
Out of our very own mouths.