EXCHANGING EGO FOR ONE’S TRUE SELF

Some say the most profound scientific discipline is theoretical physics which vastly expanded our understanding of the structure of the physical universe, using the language of mathematics, but I think, now, this needs to be transcended by an even more fundamental spiritual/theological discipline which furthers a deeper understanding of God and human beings through the expansion of consciousness of love, truth, justice, and beauty as expressed through arts and literature. Materialistic evolution, i.e., science and technology, has taken us about as far as humanity’s ever going to get, spiritually, but the prospects for our species will turn out to be pretty grim if that’s the full extent of what we, as humans, are ever going to achieve.

Isn’t it time for humans to make a conscious, species-wide, choice about which of these evolutionary paths we should take: materialistic evolution (including artificial intelligence) or the next step in our human spiritual evolution.

Greater spirituality, however, won’t necessarily increase our intelligence or ability to manipulate the material world, but might, eventually, evolve us into an entirely different type of humanity –  the kind earlier pointed us towards by Jesus, Buddha, Mohammed, and Laozi.

            When a person enters the world, as a baby, they’re totally open to God – arriving as pure energy in human form. Because babies come straight from God, they’re completely natural upon arrival. After that surprise landing in the world, however, they need to figure out how to survive in a particular time and place. Eventually they do, but the cost can be high. They’re faced with the necessity of becoming the kind of person other people readily recognize and like, as well as this child’s surrounding culture use. Since, usually, they’re raised by their parents – people who’ve already made the requisite compromises and adjustments – this baby, ultimately, learns how to “fit in.”

The baby, though, who started life as a tiny energy “sun,” eventually begins to “dim” because so much of their original natural energy can be perceived as “alien” by her family’s world. Eventually, however, the baby matures and becomes a “person” by developing its ego –ultimately joining society. One day, however, this very baby – after attaining adulthood – might begin wondering where all her previous God-like energy has gone – and whether it can ever be regained.

In traditional societies, a person’s roles remain largely the same throughout their life and also determines how their own children turn out.

In more modern societies, however, by early adulthood, a person usually can gain various abilities and opportunities that allow them to change “who” they are – through their “individual” choices – which can lead them away from their predestined family roles and enable them to become, partly, a family-destined person and partly a self-determined one – as a “composite” role. Nevertheless, whatever this mixed role ends up turning out to be, it’s still, ultimately, a role.

All roles, whether traditional, composite, or fully modern, are included in one’s “life story.” As Shakespeare wrote in As You Like It: “All the world’s a stage, and all the men and women merely players.” So, the problem with developing an “ego,” along with an  accompanying “life story,” is the temptation to “make up” the story as one goes along – like living inside a self-made dramatic film – even though this is usually carried out, mainly, unconsciously.

Another problem with “roles” is their need for consistency and continuity, so the self, seemingly, remains the “same.”

This is why much “higher” values are necessary to effect real change in these quotidian roles and ongoing stories. Traditionally, humanity’s highest values are attributable to a “Holy Spirit” (usually identified as “God”) – as well as to other divine attributes such as love, truth, justice, and beauty.

Roles and their accompanying stories compel us to live as unfree. Since we believe these roles and stories (reinforced by the surrounding society) constitute our “identity,” we sometimes believe we need to “die” as the price for achieving real freedom. Frequently, if a person is threatened with losing their identity, they think they might as well be dead. That’s how important roles and personal stories are for normal human beings. In fact, there’s a general consensus in the humanities, as well as in psychotherapy, that the ego, as a person’s chief fictional character, is one’s essential self.

So, how do we free ourselves from such embedded roles and stories making up our “ego,” which obstructs our “natural” human self-understanding and also closes down our spontaneous thoughts and gain the freedom necessary to become our “true selves”?

The answer is we have to be “born again” – at any age! That is, we need to reverse direction, spiritually, and become a “child” all over again in order to become as free as God.

Jesus himself said this, did this, and then voluntarily diedto show us how.

To be “born again” is scary – and very few of us are able to do it all at once. Most people need time to shed their artificial roles to become free enough to make a long and daring leap to their “true selves.” Starting at an older age, however, it’s actually easier to move towards a higher spirituality by breaking up and discarding pieces of one’s earlier “false selves,” gaining the greater naturalness and openness that’s spiritually necessary to achieve one’s “true self” –  even though, at the same time, by necessity, we’re also inevitably becoming physically frailer and weaker.

PURE CONSCIOUSNESS

When I came to understand more clearly the difference between my ego (or false self) and my “true self,” and then looked at various ways I might reach that “true self,” especially by becoming a “nobody,” I was stumped as to what this would actually mean in terms of human experience.

            I thought I’d do some research on work done in academia on the “self” and discovered Galen Strawson, a philosopher famous for studying the nature of consciousness or the “self.”

            Strawson writes that pure uninterrupted consciousness lasts only about one-third of a second to three seconds – which has recently been modified by Fei Fei Li to an interval as brief as a blink. That’s not to say that this period of consciousness can’t be renewed and extended by follow-up thoughts. Strawson thought, though, that turning a succession of thoughts into a narrative story is not necessary to be truly human. I agree with Strawson that it’s in a pure consciousness experience where we actually exist as our “true self.” That this experience, not one influenced by established “roles” or self-edited “movies” or “stories,” is where the “true self” actually exists. And, if this “true self” can be directed through our best understanding of an “alive” God, then we’ll be able to “see” and “act” through God’s eyes and mind after developing the “tools” which help us see and think like God would see and think if God were a human being – as if God were actually one’s self. Such principal tools of God include love, truth, justice, and beauty.

            Of course, it’s important to gain the freedom to become one’s “true self,” by using our own intrinsic freedom – the freedom God originally gave us at birth – but which we, unfortunately, and all too often, relinquish during the periods when we’re busy developing our egos into false selves.

            Remember, once you achieve becoming “nobody,” it’s only then that you’re able to become your “true self” – anytime you want. Just imagine the power of that – to be able to see through God’s eyes, experience life through God’s mind and soul, and, then, be able to act as God would act if God were a human being – that is, as if God were you.

HOW TO BECOME GOD’S “CHILD”

First, you have to want it!

Jesus, obviously did, and showed that it was possible
For everyone,
To become a full human being
Elevated up from human animals.

Human beings have choices –
Infinite choices –
Given to us by our brilliant human minds.

Everyone has this mind –
No matter how dull or distracted we are –
We all have it.

It’s a gift from God
To be used either for good or evil –
That’s the deal!

At each conscious moment
We have a choice –
Do we want to be the kind of human being who acts like God would act
If God were human.

If so, we choose Love,
Truth,
Justice
And, always, Beauty.

It’s fairly easy to act like God would act if one consciously chooses it –
Just take a moment and think about what you really want
And then do it –
Each time you choose God, it’ll bring more God into the world –
Both inside you and through you.

Love never disappears completely
Truth is permanent as the stars
Justice makes societies work
And Beauty emphasizes how stunningly splendid our world is.

NO THING IS GOD

No thing is God –
Which is why God’s completely free –
Beyond all known and unknown categories.

Fei Fei Li counted those categories – at least 20,000+ types of images –
Which she had labeled
So her machines could “see” them.

Fei Fei created a machine-controlled “God” –
Which, actually, wasn’t God –
Because no one can “own” God.

God is watching over Fei Fei and all other humans attempting to re-create God
Into a “known” and “controlled” God –
God is appalled, yet expectant.

Beyond things, there is no thing –
Beyond control, lies chaos –
And, apparently, love might even disappear.

After those 20,000 images – comes time –
Which is presently expiring –
Yet, sometimes, time can start all over again.

All “things” exist in space –
Flickering on and off –
As well as within time
Which might not exist.

God thinks this is so funny
Humans re-creating everything that, in actuality, already exists,
For use inside artificial machines.

This is certainly something to look into and wonder about.

SOUL WORK

How is it possible to work on what we no longer believe in –
The word “soul” having become archaic and anachronistic –
Western Civilization placing it to one side at least 500 years ago.

Children still understand souls however –
As the unique selves in which they live and play –
Children know all about heart shrines
And wishes that really come true.

A soul is what we like to say is:
“God within us.” 

Having a soul means that, as a mature human being,
We’re authorized to marry God –
Folding supreme love inside a white handkerchief
Placed next to our hearts.

One’s soul is priceless –
Which is why we’re so tempted to give it away for free.

One’s soul is completely free –
Just like God is free –
And love.

The soul is a jewel beyond value –
A spiritual dream which, over time, becomes real –
And nearer to us than our closest living relative.

The soul is actually me – if I want to claim it –
And I do want that.

God, please, please, free my soul –
Just like you promised us so long ago.

IS GOD’S “POWER” EQUAL TO THE LOVE IN A MOTHER’S EYES

Lately my eyesight’s become a bit blurry –
And my hearing’s also gotten dim
    since I can barely hear the person sitting right next to me –
Nevertheless, I still walk around the block – even if I get tired on the return.

So, now, Jesus’ message is finally getting through
About God’s coming down to earth
With power.

Because it’s obvious, isn’t it, that there’s nothing left for me –
It’s all God’s responsibility now.

It’s difficult, however, to accept that God actually has any real power,
Especially given all the missed opportunities –
The tens of billions of human deaths – natural and man-made –
So, God, where were you, then, with all your supposed “power?”

It’s ridiculous, isn’t it, in the modern world, to believe in that kind of God –
But where else could any real hope come from?
Where sweet goodness?
Or the love God has sprinkled so generously throughout our hearts?

Maybe God’s “power” was not, and never was, about what we wanted or thought we needed –
Maybe, instead, it was more like “beauty” – about which I’m taking ever greater notice now –
Or “truth” which, with age, I express more freely –
Or “justice” which slowly, methodically, is inching its way towards humanity.

Maybe, God’s “power” is simply the “love” reflected in a mother’s eyes
Which never fades.

Maybe God’s “power” is like that!

KEEP DANCING IN SPITE OF AGING

Unfortunately, I’ve gotten way too old to dance.
My feet just don’t work that way anymore –
Too wooden for the spin.

Yet my heart sings –
Is singing – right now!

You can hear it no matter how far away you are –
You can even feel it without being awake.

Yes, although I no longer dance –
My heart still sings –
In waking dreams that surprise even me.

Dancing without feet –
Deep down in my heart –
I suddenly hear the voice of Jesus out in the wilderness
Fighting Satan by outwitting him –
And being someone who always says “No” to evil.

All God’s power can be hidden inside a silver thimble.

The evil one and all his accomplices run away
When that tiny glittering container of goodness appears.

I’m wearing one right now –
A true symbol of God’s goodness –
It’s filled with tiny eye sparkles –
Which include every bit of love in my life –

Here, in this old, yet still innocently young
Body.

THE INTERCONNECTIVITY BETWEEN SELF AND GOD

Artificial selves worship artificial gods
While the search for one’s “true self”
Has to end up discovering a true God.

Accepting one’s family imprint on one’s self –
Or society’s imprint –
Or even the imprint of a small circle of artist friends –
Invariably leads into a room captioned “religion”
With an exclusive set of beliefs.

God, however, is wild –
More so even than Nature itself –
At all levels – particles through galaxies.

God obviously cannot be held in hand like a medallion –
To be sworn upon –
And there’s no pictures either.

God is invisible – lives nowhere –
And always is a surprise to us –
Like the wind
Which arises so suddenly –
Carrying oceanic flavors.

God is Love –
Waiting as long as you need.

Yes, the ultimate truth about God
Is that God is willing to wait for us!

LOVE FOR THE INVISIBLE

“Impossible, isn’t it?”
The guru who knows “what’s what” mumbles.

He can’t see individual women –
Because he doesn’t want to!

He’s a man who takes women in delectable bites –
Always desiring just one more.

Men, in general, though, hang around in bands or small herds
Which multiplies their strength –
Occasionally, a few women join in.

Jesus, on the other hand, might have been the kind of man who wasn’t totally male –
In gender, he might have been, at least in certain aspects, female –
Remember, in the synoptic gospels, he once compared himself to a “hen”
“How often I have longed to gather your children together,
as a hen gathers her chicks under her wings … “ (Mt 23:37).

This is someone who became stronger and more courageous
Than any other human being on earth –
Someone able to eventually devour an Empire –
Following which, a couple thousand years later,
This person is still passing that Roman Empire through
Their ancient/postmodern body.

Personally, I’m also getting closer to death
But don’t know which parts, or all, of me that’ll consist of –
That is, whether there’s anything invisible hiding inside me –
Waiting for death to reveal itself –
In the meantime, I’ve been patiently waiting to expire
In God’s promised, physically challenging,
Final burst of spiritual joy!

WHITE EVANGELICALS TOGETHER WITH ARTIFICIAL INTELLIGENCE ENTER A VAST DESERT OF HUMAN SPIRITUAL DEVOLUTION

Capitalism and empire, recently empowered by Evangelical Trump voters,
Have the intent, mostly unconscious, to destroy any hope for human spiritual evolution.

A Tsunami of artificial intelligence is impending over the world –
With capitalism as its groaning satanic engine –
Is leading human beings to the verge of doom
Unless some unexpected startling reflective human enlightenment
Enables us to avoid such impending dumpster fire.

Over the past eight or so years, Evangelicals have been tearing off the head of Jesus
And replacing it with a Trump/Putin clone
Causing the hope for human spiritual evolution –
Originally gifted by Jesus’ personal sacrifice –
To begin disappearing.

So, who’ll say what’s obvious and what can be rallied behind?
It’s women – who’re always left out –
Especially an individual woman who understands and embodies
All prior male spiritual evolution.

She’ll say: “Okay, I’m ready!”
“Don’t be afraid.”
“Here’s what we’re going to do” –
“We’re going to make a pivot that’ll save us all.

With traditional human values of wealth and power as our former spiritual engines –
Inevitably, they’re now on track to destroy us all –
So, they’ll have to be totally replaced
By Love, Truth, Justice, and Beauty
And, most of all, by comprehensive Freedom –
All coming to be accepted as the real God – who comprises them all –
And who we’ll love (even in our modern world) with all our hearts, minds, souls and strength.

Please see us, beautiful one, our coming female Messiah,
Please come now

After all, this is your time!